…Journey On The Yellow Brick Road…

Well I haven’t posted in a long while, last proper posting was dated 1st April 2009. So enough jibber jabber… I won’t bother going into much details of things since April till now…A few life changing moments throughout the past 6months plus. I’ve managed to feel almost all forms of emotions from the elation of my 30th birthday to the heart wrenching passing of my father, 2009…the year of The Yellow Brick Road.

If anyone is unfamiliar with the “Yellow Brick Road” it’s the road Dorothy traveled with her pooch Toto to the Emerald City in search of the Wizard Of Oz so as to find her way home to Kansas. If you’ve not read the book, go get it! “The Wizard of Oz” by L. Frank Baum.

Well I feel my life is akin to that of Dorothy and NO…I’m not a guy running around in a dress with a pooch by his side. I was in a deep long conversation with a close friend just recently, and I came to the conclusion, everyone has their “Yellow Brick Road” (YBR) experience in life. As through life’s journey, we encounter so many obstacles and friends along the way. Over the past few months, I’ve been in limbo with my life and life decisions. My one wish when I turned 30 was to become more responsible with my life and my direction. I guess my father had other ideas. His passing struck a crippling blow to my “life decisions/plans”. One day I’m up and about babbling incoherently and aimlessly what I want to do with my life just because I’m turning the big three-O, and next I’m entrusted all the responsibility I could never imagine, over night I’m the family head with a list of Do’s and Don’t that I must figure out. These chains of events dropped me right on the YBR.

I began reassessing all my decisions and actions over the past month and even years to come to a conclusion. I need to get to the Wizard; he’ll have the answers I need. Over the past months I’ve met so many people, and some of them have become my closest confidants, and for that I’m thankful that I have these traveling companions on the YBR.

As for now…I’m in the midst of this really perplexing journey, but I know that at the end of this journey I will find the answers I need, whether good or bad, I’ll be left to find out at the end of the YBR when I meet the Wizard at the Emerald City, and I shall find my answers there. Until then, I must just keep focusing on the path ahead, it’s a long path, and not an easy one.

~iD~

…I Close My Eyes…

I close my eyes,And i see you,

The waking moments, a scream in silence.

I close my eyes, you’re still there,

these silent moments, bring shots of pain.

Your face eludes me, in my woken state,

your face endures, through my darkest days.

~iD~

Marched Away March

Well it’s time for an update….i’m not getting any better at updating this blog,so i think i’ll get guest bloggers every now and then…should help me maintain this blog :p I do wish to blog a tad bit more then i’ve done over the past months, but been having writers block, either that or life hasn’t been worth writing about.

Lets see..i’ll go in a simple order of whats been going on…

1) Our team (Matrix Entourage Lemon Ruski) is currently sitting pretty in first on the MPOC (Malaysian Paintball Official Circuit) table in division 2 after 2 rounds (Jan and Feb)

2)i’m several weeks away form turning 30 (tha thought scared me, but the fear has worn off)

3)Been partying with a great bunch of peeps since Jan, and has been one mad weekend to another..and it’s not always in a club, so thats always good.

4)Phuket trip with friends is around the corner.

5)My niece turned 3 last month, brother turned 19..and…errr…oh Alan Voon turned 28 ..(i swear his IC is forged…think it’s actually 1975 or something)

6)FYPK (Five YEars…….etc…) has stared practicing again..so..GOod on ya guys

7)Superbar seems like they’ve taken a haitus for a while now..elo chak,dd,anyone reading this…get back on stage!

8)FB is the best and worst program online ever discovered…long hours surfing meeting old friends…and alsolong hours surfing neglecting daily work..woo hoo!

9)2 + 2 still equals 4….(yes i’m running out of things to write)

10) 10 is a good number to always stop on a list..

hmm apart form that nothing earth shaking or life changing has happend in recent months, apart from the same old rubbish in the office…except..this year..we get to do it all again..on…a….BUDGET! YAY economic downturns…now i just spend days on end doing a job that anyone would do for a buck, so i’ve resorted to fighting for every lil penny…(BOSS (referring to the MD)…if you’re reading this..Me Need A Raise!)

ok then…basically i’m just bored stiff left to my demise with Jaz’s lappy while she plays Tap Tap with Alan in front of me..hence the blogging..

ok..gonna ruin their game now and then have some verbal interaction with humans..till i write again..cheers

p/s Oh forgot 11) i extended my tattoo on my iner left calf…mini “self” birthday prezzie

UPDATE!

ok..i’ve got a fair bashing from a few peeps that i’ve not been updating my blog…and..YES i’m guilty as charged!…so from today onwards, i will be updating at least once a week…(let’s not hold our breath on that ya)

so just for a quick recap, it’s now 2009, the New Year, and also the new Lunar New Year of the Ox…so Happy New Year to everyone!